17th Feb 2014
Monday // 5am // 6 months agoThe best love.
God’s love .. and self love .. are the best love.
Never go searching within someone else, what you should be searching for within yourself.
Love and happiness go hand in hand. Love and honor GOD and love and honor yourself first! That is the only way you will ever be able to know how to love…
17th Feb 2014
Monday // 5am // 6 months ago
As I’ve stated before I’m trying and going to live a life pleasing to Christ, which brings me to the topic of partying. I wouldn’t say I was ever an extreme party girl, maybe when I first turned 18/19 but whatever. As I got older the partying just seemed whatever to me. Sometimes I felt like I partied just to be down, just because others were doing it , I wanted to have this fun everyone spoke about .
But what about now?
Recently, I realized that as a person living for Christ the party scene may not be for me . Especially, as a new born person in Christ. I’m not yet as grounded, so a party would easily have me slipping back into my old behaviors. Why would I want to slip back into the behaviors and mannerisms I had before Jesus gave me a second chance . I don’t want to go back to my old behaviors , life with Christ is amazing . I love it.
So is there something wrong with partying? I think generally if you’re a party girl or party boy it’s a problem like why are you working to turn up every weekend. What are you searching for in clubs that you can’t find at home. As a Christian, I don’t know exactly what to say about partying because ideally it’s a celebration but there are levels to a celebration. You can have a wholesome celebration without any kind of enhancements.
Today, I only go out if it’s a close friend birthday or if I personally know the person. Even then it takes a lot to get me out lmao gotta force me. I’m 22 though and there’s times I’ll go to a party and really get into the music . You can’t judge me for it. I also do not drink anymore. I’ve learned I’m actually a fireball of energy just off life alone and that’s alllll I need. But most of the time I’ll pick anything over a party. Sweating isn’t for me. Id like to go out with my hair curled and come back with my hair STILL curled lmao
This is a topic that I’ve heard so many mixed opinions about . It’s something you HAVE to take up with God and have Him reveal the answer.
This is my opinion, the truth lies in God alone. It’s something I’ll have to pray about but as I get older, I drift away more and more from that clubbing scene and I’m absolutely okay with it. Actually I’m great about it. My priorities are God, my family , my career and my education, if there are things not applying to my priorities than it is not for me.
To know Jesus is to know love
16th Feb 2014
Sunday // 3pm // 6 months ago
When it comes to relationships, boys really got it so confused. Like I’m attractive and occasionally guys want to talk to me, wife me, whatever and that’s cool. They attempt to woo me with nice words and sweet texts but that’s basically it. I’m not complaining about the attention , that’s cool. But if I actually like you back I don’t need only sweet texts from you. I need you to make an effort. What happened to courting ? To simple dates? A trip to Starbucks? Movies ? A walk? Anything to really get to know a person’s mannerisms. You can pretend in texts but you can’t in person.
I just want a guy who really understands that of course a relationship is important but the beauty in a lot of relationships is the journey to get into one and the continuous journey while in one. It’s not fronting if a female tells you they can’t continue to be “pen pals” forever . It’s not fronting when a female stops texting you first. It’s because you didn’t put in the effort to back up your words. You didn’t care enough to ask her on that first date. Now of course a girl can ask the guy on the date but usually when a guy texts a girl and is trying to woo her , it’s up to him to ask. In my opinion, but whatever.
I just want a guy whose words matches their actions or rather whose actions matches their words. That’s all.
So maybe this will help guys kind of understand why the girl they liked at one point and she liked back just stops contacting you. She’s tired and doesn’t have time for the kiddy games. Grow up and work for the girl you want to pursue . Of course this applies to females also. Ladies there’s no wrong in pursuing a man you like just be classy don’t be so open and be yourself.
14th Feb 2014
Friday // 6am // 6 months ago
You can quickly become close with a person …and just as quickly become distant.
You know how annoying that is? To open up to a person , talk to them everyday , learn their mannerisms and everything and out of nowhere the closeness disappears ?
It hurts to pretend like it doesn’t bother you. It’s hard to not think that maybe it’s something you did. You go back through old messages trying to figure out what exactly did you say to push them away.
But then you realize that it doesn’t have to always be your fault . That you’ve done all you could, you’ve shown support, you’ve shown love. You’ve been there .
Sometimes people can’t handle being close to someone because of their past hurt . They had friendship issues or relationship issues that causes them to have a guard up. Ladies and gentlemen, we all have guards, it’s nothing new. Shoot I have a guard up when it comes to males but the difference between me and others is that I don’t let it block me from gaining beautiful relationships or friendships.
I pray over my friendships and relationships often. I want God to put people that I deserve and that also deserve me into my life. God fearing people, those who respect me . Those who will trust me. I pray over it and I’ve been more than good.
Jesus knows what and who you need in your life. So trust Him, it’s not up to you to put your guard up and close off potentially amazing people for you. Just pray over any newly acquired friendship or relationship and watch God work. Give your all , so you have no what ifs no regrets . Once you pray over your friendships and relationships , let go. Let go and open your heart. We are to show love to everyone as Jesus has whether or not they have hurt us. Trust me you’ll be more peaceful after.
Know Jesus and you know love.
Have a blessed day :-)
13th Feb 2014
Thursday // 8am // 6 months agoUnconditional love
I am literally in tears as I write this. I just finished watching the movie “Unconditional” and it is one of the most inspiring films I have ever watched. I thank God that I am in a position in life to be able to help others reach their goals, even if I may not be where I want to be. I am…